When my patience is tested

Just so you know, I am the only person in our entire family who haven't been in a relationship. Yes, I am proud that I've found myself drawing satisfaction from God alone. But I am still believing that God is writing the best love story for me and for the one He made for me.

Everytime our family will have a reunion and get together, everyone will ask, "Do you have a boyfriend already?" For a zillion times, they're asking the same question. And yet, I answer just one answer, "I don't have a boyfriend. I am praying. God's is still writing the best love story for me." But one night, my patience is tested. One relative responds in an offending approach "Ang tiyaga!" (So patient!) That's the point! I am really patiently waiting! Is that a bad thing? 

I cried and feeling like I am nowhere. I feel like my dreams will stay as dreams. I doubted God's timing and God's plan. Then God reminded me of what's true and what's important. That in this 'waiting', I am not waiting for a perfect guy and for someone who would make me feel I am special, I am waiting for God and God alone. That everything I have in my prayers are in His hands. 

As I reflect, I appreciated how God is focusing on molding me, my attitude, my character, and my heart. I appreciated how God is taking me to the right path that leads me to His loving arms. I appreciated how God is allowing these things to happen for me to embrace more of Him alone. 

This is my prayer...

Dear Lord, 

Thank You for pouring out Your grace and Your love to me and for giving me this desire to have an intimate relationship with You and for putting in my heart this dream of being with somone who loves you more than anyone else.. May You forgive me for doubting Your timing and Your plans. May You teach me more on how to be patient on waiting on You. May you teach me to draw satisfaction from You and not from people around me. I place my heart in Your hands and trusting that You will give it to someone You are molding just like how You're molding me. I trust in Your greater plans. I trust in Your words. I pray in the Name of Your Son, Jesus Christ, My Lord, Amen!