A lot like friendship or a lot like love?

"If I had my life do over  again... I'd find you sooner so I could love you longer."

Because we're friends. If I could have you sooner in the past, I wil love you more than friends so I could say we can be lovers forever. But no, we're friends. we've always been friends. I don't know how we started out. I don't know how we could start on a different level. But playing games with you wasn't that easy. It feels like playing a game on my own, and you're just like a thing I could carry along.

And we're not lovers. It's been hard for me bearing this feeling inside my heart. I am confused. I am unsure. Am I inlove with you? Or am I just happy being with you? I wanted to ask you "have you ever felt the same way?" But I'm afraid that the answer is no.

Why do these things? You've been calling me, visiting me, giving me gifts, and just being with me. You're actually confusing me. You're giving me false hope that I've never asked from you. You're giving too much attention that gave me an impression that maybe you love me too. But all this time, you never said something about 'falling in love'. You're like giving me a heartache without even hurting me.

Are you naturally sweet? Because I am wondering if you are doing these things to other girls too. As time goes by, my confusion level is reaching the highest. I almost want to give up and fall back.

A lot like friendship. "I am happy to be your friend, your bestfriend." I don't know how would I react when you said these words to me. Yes, I am happy being with you, too. I am so much happy when we became friends. But why do I admire for something more?

A lot like love. "But can we take it to another level?" Shocked! Amused! And having my eyes bigger. I asked "What do you mean with another level?" and you said "I love you, I have always loved you. Can we be lovers?" Those are the exact words I wanted to hear. This is the moment I've been praying every night. "Is this true?" I asked. "Yes it is." And you hold my hands and gave me a kiss. "Don't worry. I will never ask for more of you. Being just you is more than enough" Those sweet words from your lips are just like getting flying without wings. Finally!

All the questions in my mind are all answered. We've been lovers for a long time but refuse to open it up. Now, we're a lot like lovers and I can never ask for more. The bestfriend that I ever had is finally the best boyfriend I could ever have. :)

This is by request. Just a result of my wide imagination. :)