It "is less painful, but it still hurts"

He came into my life

He taught me how to love

He cared for me

He told me he love me

But then he saw her

He liked her

He left me for no reason

He hurt me but I know I can move on

because...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

He's the only guy who made me feel this way

He took me deeper that I can't get up again

I can't believe I fell for that

I can't believe I'm in love this much

But then he saw her

He liked her

He left me for no reason

He hurt me but I know I can move on

because...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

From now on, I'll be the best girl I can be

I learned my lesson

I realized many things

But it'll be a long process

before I forget him

I just want to say

Thank you for making me feel this way...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

While I'm going back home from Caliraya, I looked at the beautiful creation of God. It is relaxing. But then, some words just popped in my head. I never knew I already composed a song. I know it is from my heartache. Maybe, by this song, I spilled out all that I want to say. The words "It is less painful but it still hurts" has a story behind it. One day at camp, Me and ate Julia(A Canadian Missionary) walked beside me and held my hand. She helped me while walking since I'm having a hard time walking because I got my leg sprained. Then she asked me, "How was your foot?" then I say, "It is less painful, but it still hurts." Then I set my eye to the sky, shed a tear, and realized that "I'm still hurt from the heartache he caused me but it is less painful now." I'm happy to feel that. I'm happy to know that I can move on. I feel much better than before. Although I still remember how happy I was when he's around, It still hurt to know that, he's not with me anymore. It's true. I'm so happy whenever he's with me. I never felt this way before. I mean that way to be happy with a guy. But it all ends now. He has found someone that would fit better to his likes. Maybe I fit in, but there's someone better. I knew God's answer was NO. I just don't want to accept God's answer that's why this heart ache happens. This is God's plan, I know. This heartache is His way to tell me, "My child, you loved the wrong guy."

Thank You Lord for this heartache. I got You point God. I learned the lesson You want to tell me. Thank You so much. 

To the "HE" guy in my song...

Thank you. You were an amazing person. I'm not mad at you just because you hurt me this way. I learned many things from you. May you have the best things in life. I know God have better plans for the both of us. THANK YOU!

God Bless!