It "is less painful, but it still hurts"

He came into my life

He taught me how to love

He cared for me

He told me he love me

But then he saw her

He liked her

He left me for no reason

He hurt me but I know I can move on

because...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

He's the only guy who made me feel this way

He took me deeper that I can't get up again

I can't believe I fell for that

I can't believe I'm in love this much

But then he saw her

He liked her

He left me for no reason

He hurt me but I know I can move on

because...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

From now on, I'll be the best girl I can be

I learned my lesson

I realized many things

But it'll be a long process

before I forget him

I just want to say

Thank you for making me feel this way...

It is less painful, but it still hurts

and I know that I really don't deserve this

I know that this is what God just planned

I know I can move on

It is less painful but I'm hurting

It is less painful but that pain remains

I know sooner God will make a way

To heal my broken heart, ohhhhh

While I'm going back home from Caliraya, I looked at the beautiful creation of God. It is relaxing. But then, some words just popped in my head. I never knew I already composed a song. I know it is from my heartache. Maybe, by this song, I spilled out all that I want to say. The words "It is less painful but it still hurts" has a story behind it. One day at camp, Me and ate Julia(A Canadian Missionary) walked beside me and held my hand. She helped me while walking since I'm having a hard time walking because I got my leg sprained. Then she asked me, "How was your foot?" then I say, "It is less painful, but it still hurts." Then I set my eye to the sky, shed a tear, and realized that "I'm still hurt from the heartache he caused me but it is less painful now." I'm happy to feel that. I'm happy to know that I can move on. I feel much better than before. Although I still remember how happy I was when he's around, It still hurt to know that, he's not with me anymore. It's true. I'm so happy whenever he's with me. I never felt this way before. I mean that way to be happy with a guy. But it all ends now. He has found someone that would fit better to his likes. Maybe I fit in, but there's someone better. I knew God's answer was NO. I just don't want to accept God's answer that's why this heart ache happens. This is God's plan, I know. This heartache is His way to tell me, "My child, you loved the wrong guy."

Thank You Lord for this heartache. I got You point God. I learned the lesson You want to tell me. Thank You so much. 

To the "HE" guy in my song...

Thank you. You were an amazing person. I'm not mad at you just because you hurt me this way. I learned many things from you. May you have the best things in life. I know God have better plans for the both of us. THANK YOU!

God Bless!

I'm currently working on a short film for our Final project in Multimedia. Ayun. HORROR ang nabunot naming gawin. My reaction? It's like WAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Anuba! pano ishushoot? Paano iisipin ang story? Kailangan ba true story? ano ba? Ang imagination ko pa naman talagang gumuguhit sa utak ko! waaaa! yung tipong pakiramdam ko totoong nangyayari? huhu
Pero ito nga. May story na kami! hhahah. Hindi naman halatang natatakot ano? Okay naman. Horro Suspense. MOSOYO! Excited na ako sa shooting namin.

Konting patikim. As you can see, ELVIRA ang Title.

The story is about Luisa, na may-ari ng resort na Villa Isabella at apat na magbabarkada na nagpunta sa Resort para magovernight. Since they are researching about the story ELVIRA who is said to be living at Liliw, Laguna. But they ended up encoutering ELVIRA'S kalupitan.

Know how? Then watch it kapag tapos na namin! hahaha

LOVE YOU! <3

Making Decisions

Okay! I asked God, "Lord, gawin niyo nalang pong 20-21 ang U-Wide para po makasama ako sa Cory ng Edsa Stage Play". God aswers my prayer but then, He gave me another option. Evangelism Seminar. O_O. which is 21-22 and I have the freedom to go there. but...:( I don't know. I asked God and He answers but this choice He gave is hard. I can't stand with the word I said before, "I won't let God's activity to be missed."

asdfghjkl. ayon. Ayan ang nafifeel ko ngayon. Although hindi ako yung nasa picture, parang ganyan ang emotion ko ngayon. huhuhuhuhu. pano na toh? 

God, help me in making this decision. I know that you know what is the best for me. Lord, let You will be done in my life. Control it. 

zelle 

Hello and BYE! 


Hindi na ako makakapag kwento ngayong gabi kasi nga, GABI NA! wooo! anyways. I will list down my epic topics nalang huh?

• CALEB'S house
• SMCC Anniversary
• Caleb dedication to God
• God's message to me nung magpunta ako sa Las Pinas
• Caleb as someone else
• Me dreaming realzing that I dream of Caleb's house long before I been there. :)
• rewriting my story Misterio and it will be MR. Ree
• and BYE! I love you and God Bless! <3

As you can see, puro Caleb ano? Kasi...basta. later confession nalang iyon! God Bless!

My wishes. :)

Well, I never asked somebody to do this for me. In fact, I want someone to discover this all by himself/herself. So, because I am the only one who can read this, let me share my wishes.

1. To be surprised on my birthday.
2. To shout on a place where no one hears me, except with the one who will take me there.
3. To ride on an airplane
4. To ride on a train
5. To record a song composed by the one I love
6. To wrote a song for God
7. To get married with the man that loves God the most
8. To get a big big big teddy bear!
9. To hear a song from someone who loves me even he's out of tune
10. TO DANCE IN THE RAIN with the one who loves me and I love.

This is all for now. But actually, I have hundreds of wishes. It's not I want to get it all, but pursuing it is like a mission accomplished. and lastly, I want to pursue those wishes with the man that I mentioned in number 7. :)

The highlighted wishes are the one whom I really want to get. :)

God Bless you all!

Ako lang. Ako palang

Ayun. As of now ako palang ang nakakabasa ng blog ko na toh. and weird ano? ako din naman ang babasa. wala lang. labasan lang ng sama ng loob, hinanakit, kasiyahan, at lahat na ng nararamdaman ko makikita ko o mo dito. kaya...HELLO!

LOVE IT!

Love it ang new template ko! Nakakarelate naman na kahit papano ang title ng blog na toh. Diba? hehe.
well. nakakainis. ito nalang ang inatupag ko. :(
Geh! Bukas nalang. Dahil...antok na ako. Love You!

Hayyy.  may kwento pa naman ako. :( well..may bukas pa naman diba?

God Bless!

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asdfghjkl. new blog! here is where I will express my feeling to someone who will remain anonymous. :)